Alrighty folks so...
This means.. A lot to me?
I don't typically write 'poetry' but..
Writing right now is really all I can do.
So if you didn't know, I suffer from extreme social anxiety.
I have panic attacks, and I have been hospitalized before for them.
And in all my years, nothing has ever really helped me... But my boyfriend.
He was this calming factor in my life that just made everything feel okay and alright.
And since the whole incident with him being gone, it's been a very difficult thing to overcome.
My anxiety has spiked again, my panic attacks come in waves some days, and it is very hard for me.
But when he calls... When I get to visit him... God, everything melts. I stop shaking. I breathe again.
So this is how... My anxiety feels.
And how my boyfriend.. Steadies me.
He's been this saving grace these last two years.
I would not be who I am now without him. I'm just really thankful he put up with me and helped me so much become the person I am today. I have become such a strong woman thanks to him.